i've trying to understand anything.but i just still need to learn again to this life,b'cos sometimes i saw the injustice thing,discrimination anything thing like that.anyway,its not my problem..ok it was since im on the 6 grade i've been busy to do anything i mean like course,school till the afternoon.ect
about playing with my friends it was really really rare.i just play with them in the break time or rehearse place.and b'cos of many activity i just have a few friends that i close to.sometimes its make me jealous to the other friends.im asking to myself when i could be like them?? had their own time to playing with their friends,having a party,hangout,watching tv..then i turn to myself and realise that we had our own way from GOD.
everyday im going to school at 6:15 am and the school will end at 3 pm..after that i've got another rehearse example for red cross indonesia,japanese club,or now english club it will end at 5 pm or 6 pm..after that i go home and put my bag to my room take a bath..then im going to the course place and it will end at 9 pm.
beside that sometimes i've got many homework so i must finish it.it will end at 11 pm or sometimes 12 pm.then yeah i can't sleep i tried to cheer myself with playing with my toys.and its sometimes end at 1 am or 2 am.
it's secret but yea im soo sensitive person and sometimes im fragile.i proof it when i get my ownself being lonely.with unpredictable my tears would fall down.yea i realise that im crying along at night.and i pray to GOD,GOD will You give me friends please?? although just once i will love them as my sister or brother.will You?
and yeah i've got it.although there're just a few but i love them..but sometimes my deep heart scared of it b'cos im scared if i lost them,im scared if they will forget me and anything else.
bu thanks GOD You've already give me friends no matter the distance i will love you all as my brother and sister.
LOVE you
