My Holiday and My New Year's Eve

hmm..orang biasanya ketika tahun baru di rumahnya ada acara BBQ,atau kumpul bersama keluarga,atau pergi ke tempat yang di hiasi kembang api.Tapi beda dengan saya -___-" lonely,watching tv,bengong.dan sebagainya yang membosankan.Maklum,keluarga saya terlalu sibuk dengan kegiatannya masing-masing,jadi ya tak mungkin bisa bersama.
yah ok lah ga terlalu penting masalah itu,membosankan di dengarnya dan menyedihkan sekali.Lonely in the middle on new years eve.hahah itu mungkin judul yang tepat mungkin kalo bikin buku.
But.....Hey i found someone yang rela menemani saya BBM an walau entah orang ini sibuk apa enggak tapi duh gue ganggu dia aja ya?? -__-" syukurlah orang ini merespon dengan baik.hehe dia menemani saya BBMan bukan di malem tahun baru menjelang masuk ke 2011 ini aja tapi sepanjang liburan..i guess hahaha
namanya Sarah Maranis Ramadanty Aji Fadlie,hahaha untuk beberapa kalinya gue bener nyebutin nama dia.sumpah sangatlah panjang itu untuk di inget tapi keren :D hehe.


if you want to see her face
heres her picture

this is one of my fave Sarah's Photos

karena ; saya sangat merindukan seragam itu dan beserta rompinya *thumbsup

i'm not stalker

why i took this Pic too? karena ; although i dont like to wear dress but i love look someone who wear dress

this is one of my fave too
karena ; mukanya seperti anak kecil seeekaaaleee

ah yeah,she was born at 1 february 1997
ketika pertanyaan terlontarkan bagaimana saya tahu seorang Sarah Maranis Ramadanty Aji Fadlie,karena dia memilih ekskul ensemble sebuah orchestra kecil dan saya alumni smp 77 yang memilih ekskul itu juga.Jadi,ketika group ensemble sedang latihan kadang saya datang dan melihat latihannya berlangsung,dari situ saya mengenal Sarah Maranis Ramadanty Aji Fadlie.

if you want to know more about her,click here


thanks again to rara
i hope we could being a closed friend. *thumbsup*

'night with love'

It's almost winter season so the weather is cold.I take my coat,and also my umbrella because it's little rainy outside there.I pick up my lady 'Michelle' to get candle night dinner together.We walk on the street with holding hand each others,i've never feel comfort like this before.Her perfume smells like an jasmine on the spring season.if you can imagine,how the sense of beauty today,you can not say anything it's like a dream but this is real.and you will wish all the day thats in your life like today onwards..

maybe too much imagination to flow in my brain.but the fact that I'm trapped in 'Michelle' love .It feel like I want to keep it morning noon and night every time.for someone who never fall in love and just hear what I said they will feels ridiculous.but it's real, love can makes you forget everything, with your problems, with your debt, with your enemies, with your work, even with your house.
the reality is very crazy right?

but that's life. if we don't feel the love of life will be feel different, alone, strange, hollow.
and don'tt be afraid,true love isn't just come from your boyfriend/girlfriend but we can also get from our family, or if they're not.In out there many of people will share their love and love you..

you're my brother and sister

i've trying to understand anything.but i just still need to learn again to this life,b'cos sometimes i saw the injustice thing,discrimination anything thing like that.anyway,its not my problem..ok it was since im on the 6 grade i've been busy to do anything i mean like course,school till the afternoon.ect

about playing with my friends it was really really rare.i just play with them in the break time or rehearse place.and b'cos of many activity i just have a few friends that i close to.sometimes its make me jealous to the other friends.im asking to myself when i could be like them?? had their own time to playing with their friends,having a party,hangout,watching tv..then i turn to myself and realise that we had our own way from GOD.
everyday im going to school at 6:15 am and the school will end at 3 pm..after that i've got another rehearse example for red cross indonesia,japanese club,or now english club it will end at 5 pm or 6 pm..after that i go home and put my bag to my room take a bath..then im going to the course place and it will end at 9 pm.

beside that sometimes i've got many homework so i must finish it.it will end at 11 pm or sometimes 12 pm.then yeah i can't sleep i tried to cheer myself with playing with my toys.and its sometimes end at 1 am or 2 am.

it's secret but yea im soo sensitive person and sometimes im fragile.i proof it when i get my ownself being lonely.with unpredictable my tears would fall down.yea i realise that im crying along at night.and i pray to GOD,GOD will You give me friends please?? although just once i will love them as my sister or brother.will You?

and yeah i've got it.although there're just a few but i love them..but sometimes my deep heart scared of it b'cos im scared if i lost them,im scared if they will forget me and anything else.
bu thanks GOD You've already give me friends no matter the distance i will love you all as my brother and sister.

LOVE you

patient

stand with this proud in front of the judge and the audience.happiness with this bright smile upon my face.feeling same like the winner,struggle like the army who knocked down the enemies.be patient although there's a hard storm will comes.shining like the evangelion on the sky night,with those blue,white ring around it.forgot anything about your helpless and hopeless.wishing the best thing wil always happen until the end of your life.a natural stone its really uses for the pilgrim for make a beautiful situation.swimming at the seashore,and carefull with the high wave or you'll got danger.
keep your concern,with anyone around you who need help.forgot about the knife who broke your heart.the electricity who could make your brain error.addicted of being successful human.its like ecstasy! being a murdered by the news of junkies.going insane,and make you unconcious.oh GOD this is the name of the world??.
hard,difficult,sadness,happiness,confuses,die,life,patient,fragile,loneliness..

it's hard to understand but we must to survive with those all the things in this world.
it doesn't matter if someone didn't want to understand you,or being your friends.oneday you'll got friends,reall friends.no need to expect about it but GOD will help you.

they must be gone at the same time???

26 June i've never want to forget about this date,but i never want to remember about the pain that i feel on those date..
that person who i love must gone and leave me at the same date although at the different years.

the first person is michael jackson 26 june 2009(indonesia time zone)
he's a singer, who's i know about his song since i was 4 or 5 years old..i heard about his news at the morning,i just can't believe it! and i feel there's something like fistest my heart and i can't hold my tear.it's just like nightmare for me but i realise that it was real and he must leave us b'cos he already finished all of his duty in this world so God called him to get back home.Rest In Peace michael jackson Goodbye thanks for inspired us,amuse,and delight us but you're gone too soon michael
see you later in another life.

the second person is my friend,i guess she's not a friend but my bestfriend i've ever had 26 june 2010(indonesia time zone)..she's not gone like michael she's just leave the school b'cos one thing she should to do..its started when we take a look at our exam result,and i've got an opportunity to take my exam result at first queue i open my letter and i passed the exam so im going to the grade 11..my mom waiting for me on the car so i should get hurry..i said to her i wanna go home first..while im on my way i've got some message who's make me suprise and speechless..it was said Tasha im not passed the exam,so i my aunty said i must move to another school in another city..oh,God when i read it i just wanna screaming!!and she said Tasha forgive me if i've got mistake,thanks for being my best friend since 7 years..oh God im crying..i believe that we could meet again with each other

the hurt feeling and pain.helpless,and hopeless.sadness and anything i can't imagined it.i really love them..i dont want to forget them i'll never let them part for their always in my heart..
God im alone again..humm its ok i just wondering oneday i could find someone who really want to be my friend again, friendship with heart not for money or anything.

L.O.V.E

my friends

the darknest despair in this heart
never want to forget but being forgotten
trusting and believing thats i try
cope my desire for not being brutality things
pain and hurt always in this heart
adjusting situation and make it like nothing happend

mask and lying thats how i could have
the truth its just treasure of my life
this life make me insane
injustice thats i've got
stop for presssure me
please....

there's someone got mercy
being my friends in the night
i could feel the presence of it
but i couldnt know who is it

it was evangelion,evangelion
thats the brighter star i've ever seen
blue,sparkling like a diamonds on the sea
cheer me up whereever i've got sick
my lonely has gone because of it

quiz result

just spare my time with taking quiz like this,then i found all about michael jackson quiz...and the answer is jsut checking it.its really make me smile.
this one
http://roflquiz.com/r/2650062/
and this one
http://roflquiz.com/r/2649937/

speechless

its...its oh GOD i feel confuses.
i didn't hear about him since that worse thing happening,about child sexual abuse..i believe that he not doing that bad thing..ok then the years has flow away like a river,and i feel miss him like a crazy oh GOD.
and then i heard that he want to make his last concert in London THIS IS IT 2008!
oh GOD he came back!! and the concert will start in 2009!
i dont even know what had already happen with him and his rehearse??

26 JUNE 2009
in the morning i turn on the tv,and hear music..you know what?! i looked the news and they said King Of Pop was dead!! oh GOD i didn't believe it,then my friends said that too.. oh GOD what's going happen with him??why...why..why he leave us soo soon?!
i can't hold my tear,i feel pain in my heart..

the man who teach me had already gone.. :( teach about L.O.V.E ,planet earth,appreciate..ect
although he already passed away i still found that,there're soo many people tell lying about him,about his dead and everything..
its just,why they didn't leave him i mean let him rest in peace!!

and i heard again he being a murdered...oh GOD hope he will got justice.
and now its already 10 month but he still didn't have justice..beside that i found the crazy article they said the truth michael jackson was already dead since 18 or 20 years ago!!its really crazy huh!!
i can just pray for him..
Rest In Piece michael jackson
Love Live Forever

Rainy Season.

although the rainy season its almost end.it's still rainy and sometimes make Jakarta flood again.lol!
i don't know what to do,if the day going to rain.Then that think through my mind.

1.Open my notebook
2.look into my Internet connection
3.searching an interesting and wonderful music
4.prepare my headset then plug in
5.turn the voice until 85
6.enjoy the old song



i dont know although i was born in 1994 but i loved such an oldiest song..you know it's diferent than now(modern song).the oldiest song has harmony and make the song really from the deepest heart i guess.. :D

LOOK AT IT..

CLICK HERE it makes me happy,although it's just an imagination i mean it's not real.. ^_^ he is
my virtual boyfriend lol XD

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