love for you

you made me falling in love cal

you made me believe

you taught me how to love someone by shared your love to me

you're soo fantastic that i've ever had

you're gorgeous

you're an angel for me

you brought me to the brighter day

you're there when i was down

you're there when someone broke me down

you're care about anything about me

wondering it would be like this for forever

let me try to protect you from someone who will made you hurt

i'll try to not let your tears fall down ever

please for always be my baby

ps: i love you ever :')

8 april 2011

that day was my day,my birth day and now im already 17.anyway,that was nothing important about the birthday.it was just be more special those day ok it was start when i had an football practice with another school 27 senior high school,but the weather it wasn't good enough to play on the field,so we just practice on futsal field.hmmm,ok we start first and they made 2 goal on the first played we took a brake then they made 2 again goal.huuft so tired those day,we lose but we never wanted to give up because next sunday we had championship leaguge.anyway i really feel bad with my feet i thinked i got injury oh God c'mon not now.when im on my way to go back at home i receive a called from my grandpa he said there were many of my friends in my house.ok what kind of surprise they will made for me? lol just guessing.then ok i pretend to dont know anything about situation.i opened my door room then my friends singing happy birthday to me with the cake upon their hand.then we had plan to go out for dinner,but i said "just wait for awhile i waited someone"
oh God it was took soo long -_-" i still waited her,anyway i've got really worried my love doesnt anwer my text -_- where is she?did she ok?huh...really worried.then i walked around the street with my friends looked some fresh air with ardi and almer.suddenly nibras came and her face really panicked,she was said "my friend got crash with the car over the street please help her" ok then i ran follow her -_- you know what i had found there were 4 people standed up and singing happy birthday for me and one of those person holding some cake and you know my heart start to bit up.oh God you know what i would like to thank you soo much to you to brought cal to my birthday party.that was my fave time in my life ever

thanks to all my friend,cal friends,and especially you cal :') love you cal from this deepest heart never want to lose you.

true love

After all this ended i thought i'll never found someone else will fill my day.the day and the month had flew away.i felt lonely,i just wanted to dissappear from this life as fast as i can.im so humble,i never wanted anything from those love just honest,believe,trust,and true heart.you had disappointed me,you made me broke,you seduce me with never thingking my love for you.im crying throught the night without someone beside me,im fragile not strong as you seen.i just pretend because i dont want to made you worried again just suffer your love and find new one my love.A few mont after it,i fell on those street there was someone helped me cure this hurt.i woke up from this fall stare at those person and make sure if this person will not leave me and let me fall again like you do to me.hold my hand and saying becareful of your step i will holding you until i could standing here to protect you.i dont know who is this person?but my heart really warm i believe i found my love.i now until now this person dont know what i feel but oneday i will tell it.because i can't hide to long this feeling:) love you

loving you

i woke up in the morning at 4:30 am and i opened my cell phone wonder i will got your text messege.but i realise this just a beginning of day,maybe you still in your bed and still in your dreamland.sometimes i asked to my self what day is it and what month is it? how long thats you had already with me? i never expect anything much,but i thinked your love make me crazier and i want to have it with whole my heart.im too selfish,i want to make you believe if my whole heart is for you.those day when you didnt send me your messege i stare at my phone every 2minute wondered you will text me.im too worried,im...im... and im speechless when i want to describe anything about you my lips cant say every single words about you.Did im going insane? did i cant stop thingking about you? did you love me? did im really expecting you much? did i annoyed you? did we coud be like this forever? did you never leave me? did you get jealous when i close to someone else? i dont have the answer of all those question.

maybe later i'll got all of those answer.if someday i realise you cant be with me for forever i will make sure if those someone else is good for you and never make your tears fall down.if i got those person for you i will stop text you and i will never meet you again because i dont want hurt your lover feeling because im too close with you.i believe i will miss you soo badly and my mind also my heart cannot erase all of our memmory,if you will feel the same just dont cry my baby will always there close to you. in your heart.

before those day will come i will thank to you for loving me,shared your time with me,and comfort me when my feeling was bad and never let anyone hurt your heart.

way in your life

life must go on and change,we never know what will we find in our life.keep survive from anything we find in our life.everybody could make a change anytime that they want on their self.searching for someone that you loved it doesnt easy as you searching somone account in your facebook.sometimes you found your self trap in the wrong way,and dont know how to back in your way.still believe on yourself is the key in your life,just you who could choice your right way.

the example thing are
a few days ago i found my self dissapointed with my bestfriend,i dont know why she did it to me.but there was someone comfort my heart.she always there when i need her.i promise to myself i'll always try as my best for not forgetting my memmory with her and momment when we were together,shared my love,and shared my life with her the person who i love.

PS: we could find some friends like an angel and some friends evil.

261210

ok thats night i was watching football match between thailand vs indonesia.then,i decided to send an message to my friends i call her sarah maranis.i asked for her Blackberry pin,then i started to chatting with her in those Blackberry Messanger,we were being close to each other until now.i dont know why but,a few of her interest also same as mine.one of her interest is love to read books and ect.i still remember the time when i was asked for her pin.it was 8:10 PM .ok it was kinda creepy,but i love to remember the time when i was getting close to someone else who really i loved.

Ps: thanks for being my beibh cal i hope you'll never change for any reason to leave me coz i really need you :D

Love Live Forever

loosing someone

you turn me inside out made me could feel about love again
you took me to the happiness side of this imagine world
you forgot about your problem and cheer me up as your heart do
you never angry about anything that i've done
but thats come a time all because my false
i tell you about someone else and you turn to be worried if you had hurt someone heart
then im crying all night long just to could be with you again as usual
i still scared if you never come back,i scared you had change
i scared one night you'll never pick up my phone or reply my message
i scared you'll forgot my name
im really scared of loosing you,im really scared i'll never hear your laugh and jokes
my tears is nothing,if you had gone my tears wouldn't help me to find you
it's just could made me hurt and lose.
please dont go im scared of these loneliness and darkness,bring me to the light and took me to the other side of happiness world just to feels about your love warm love.